confusion

you cant imagine how devastated i was 

when u told me the news~

i was like dumbfounded

i was speechless

i didnt know what to say

i felt like i had fell from a very steep cliff

all the way down... down... down..

i had mixed feelings

sad~ disappointed~ worried~

i felt like~

everything was perfectly fine before this

and all of a sudden~

you tell me all these...

i felt nothing else 

but left with sorrow n confusion

as you talked to me about it

i could feel it

i could feel the tears overflowing in my eyes

but..

i told myself

be strong! 

its not the end of the world!

if it happened earlier on

i guess everything would be absolutely different

the main point is ~

i really do want to stay w u

but if u r not certain 

so as to what your decision is

then.... i cant help it..~

it's all up to you 

it's our future we are talking about

oh well~

friends r friends

but... what holds us in this place?

- faith n trust

i guess i would just wait

but~ if there is a negative outcome

i really have to pull myself together 

so that i can stand up again

[sometimes.. i really wonder... 

is it worth to take things so seriously?]

i should let God plan 

n let him guide me

i believe that in everything he does

there is a purpose

n it will have a positive effect on me in long term

God is gracious n loving

we learn thru experience

tats what i can say~

I CANT PUT TOO MUCH HOPE